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The Big Six

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Six years ago today, I was 40 weeks pregnant, one day shy of my due date, miserable, giant, ready to give birth, but not ready at all. I had no idea what I was in for, as far as giving birth or as far as being a parent. All I knew was that I was ready to hold my baby in my arms. Ready to not waddle, lumber, pant, ache, hurt. Ready to not just be a mother but to mother.

I would have to wait three more days to hold my baby in my arms. When my due date came and went without any action, I was discouraged, to say the least. But by the next evening I was in the hospital, and finally the morning after that I held my sweet boy in my arms.

When he was a baby, I would say to him many, many, many times, “Oh, Joshua, I hope you always love me as much as you do now.” I knew I would love him, though I couldn’t imagine how much. But what surprised me, what I hadn’t expected, was how much he loved me. He has taught me so much about unconditional love. And he still does. When I mess up, when I speak too harshly to him, get mad over little things, he is so quick to forgive.

And now he will be six. He is thriving in kindergarten. He is excited about Hot Wheels, Lego Racers, and Super Mario Brothers. He has a best friend.

And in many ways, I still don’t know what I’m in for. But I get to be Joshua’s mom, so it doesn’t really matter.

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10 Replies to “The Big Six”

  6. Aww. I remember coming to see you while you in labor like it was just yesterday. Can it really be 6 years ago this week? Seeing you be a mom is part of what started me thinking about becoming a mom. I hope Joshua has a fabulous year of being SIX!

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